Shimmering Muse

This space serves as my haven, my escape, and my coping mechanism.

I write about everything to comfort my soul, making me feel at home.

Here, on this platform, I share my poetry, fantasy stories, thoughts, and Raw emotions.

What I am writing today is not my sensual romantic, fascinating stories or poetry but an open response, contemplating the questions and opinions I have received.

Recently, someone who was close to me asked about my ultimate purpose in life and the benchmark I have set. The person claimed that what I’m doing is similar to mindlessly scrolling through social media for a quick dopamine fix, suggesting that my activities lack purpose and are merely a waste of time, without recognizing the value of time itself.

As a full-time employee with a home to manage, and a passion for writing, reading, travel, and nature photography, I find myself unable to provide a clear answer. I’m still exploring and discovering where I truly belong.

This situation has made me question whether my life has meaning or value ? or whether this person is trying to manipulate my basic thoughts and emotions. I couldn’t help but feel like it might be a mind game or gaslighting.

How can activities like reading, writing, or engaging in conversations, whether with a stranger I just met or someone online, be considered mindless and a waste of time? Can we truly compare them to mindless social media scrolling?

Consider traveling to a place for days, solely to see things around, rejuvenate ourselves, and take pictures to cherish for a lifetime before returning to routine life. Would that be called a waste of time?

As we are all aware, reading, writing, and deep or playful conversations enrich our minds, nurturing intellectual growth and connections. Engaging in such activities benefits stress relief, and emotional well-being, and is not only exclusive to creative individuals.

I engage in these activities, especially writing, as they help me gain control of my thoughts and emotions and achieve clarity. I love what I do for my mental fulfillment. These are things I genuinely enjoy, and writing and sharing have always been therapeutic for me. Not everyone can be consistently productive and aim for financial success in everyday life. Some find contentment and peace, which cannot be bought through financial means. Some days, we all can feel lost and end up doing nothing too. And that’s absolutely okay.

It’s okay not to pressure oneself and be harsh on the body and mind, and a quick reminder not to dwell on something for too long. We don’t have to compare our lives, purposes, and success with someone else’s. I am sure we all have our distinctive directions in leading life.

So, the question I ask myself is how can I pause amidst all and set a purpose just because someone questioned it? Is that all that defines me?

I’m not surprised that people have opinions, critics, supporters, and everything in between. I hesitate to seek validation within my closed circle because their opinions are often biased, based on their perception of who they think we are rather than who we truly are or who we can become. Surprisingly, they may be the first to support us when we are nobody and the last to support us when we are on our path to becoming somebody. This doesn’t make them bad people; they might be projecting their own limiting assumptions onto us.

Ironically, appreciation and validation often come from unexpected sources, a circle of people we may not even know. These individuals judge our potential rather than our interpretation of our past. As the saying goes, “It is better to listen to a wise enemy than to seek counsel from a foolish friend.”

So, my purpose has always been to find happiness and contentment while striving to be the compassionate and harmonious person I envision. I aspire to live authentically, without seeking to please or conform to others’ expectations. I have no desire to fit in nor do I have any plans to follow the crowd. Over the years, I’ve come to appreciate the importance of being unapologetically myself, allowing for necessary changes. I live to challenge my own limits, embrace personal growth through overcoming obstacles, and I compete with none.

One thing to understand here is that not everyone is generous and honest enough to appreciate what we do without passing judgment. I’m grateful for those who generously support and encourage me when I stumble, as true generosity is indeed a rare quality.

I believe my potential knows no bounds. I have my own standards beyond my fantasies. I’m not concerned with others’ opinions, fully aware that I am not what others perceive. Instead of planning and setting goals, I nurture my potentials. I let life surprise me, and I greet those surprises with an open heart.

So my answer is, I have not set any goal, and I’m not chasing an ultimate goal; instead, I embrace the unpredictability of my boundless imagination as I wander through life, appreciating its beauty and the rare and wondrous gift of existence.

I remind myself not to let someone’s opinion undermine my own sense of worth and purpose. I trust myself and continue to pursue what brings me joy, appreciating the journey itself rather than being too consumed by the pursuit of an ultimate purpose. I make a mindful effort to take time to savor the small pleasures life brings and cherish each moment.

Remember, the purpose of life is to live it by simply enjoying the journey of life.

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